One year ago

Today marks the one year anniversary of the day we lost the baby. I will never forget what happened. We lost a child but the baby has blessed our lives so much. Helped us to see how hard we have to work to return to live with our Father in Heaven and see our little baby. Although I am pregnant again and very grateful for this wonderful present I still miss my baby that I have lost. I often ask why but then I remember the Lord needed my baby. A friend of mine told me that the Lord chose a group of strong women to carry his most perfect spirits to give them a body. The Lord knew I was strong enough to handle it. He knew I would understand as much as I could and I would make it through. I am stronger both mentally and spiritually. Our lives have been blessed by this little angel. I can tell its watching over us. We have a guardian angel. Today will be rough. I love you my little peanut and not a day goes by that I dont think of you and what you look like! I wonder what your personality is like. Know that your mother loves you!

Loosing A Tooth!

Last night Ethan lost his first tooth! I am very excited for him but sad that he is growing up so fast! Now he will get his big boy teeth! I am nervous for some reason about this change! He looks adorable of course with his tooth gone but it made me start thinking of how big he is and how fast he is growing! Soon he will be a teenager then graduated ect. I know I am totally over thinking it but I do have to say that I am proud of the person Ethan is. He has such a big heart and will be a great and wonderful adult I am sure. I just need to calm down and treasure each day!

A Cake for Carter!

So Elliana came to me a few weeks before Valentines Day and said "Mommy I want to make Cater a Valentine." I asked what she wanted to make. Her response was "A cake!" So we bought the cake mix and frosting. On Valentines Day we made a cake. She loved to be able help me mix it! Then when it came down to decorating it Ethan was home from school by then.



So he helped with the sprinkles. Elliana was very proud of her cake. When we gave it to Carter she was so happy that she got to make her friend such a wonderful present.



I then again thanked my Heavenly Father for trusting me with such a special sweet spirit. Both of my kids are so giving and so loving. They are a great example of Christ like love. I hope this quality never goes away. I hope it is one the keep with them their whole lives. I am so grateful for my family and for all they do for me!

30 Weeks and Counting!

I am 30 weeks now! I had my doctors appointment and everything is fine! I am now only measuring 1 1/2cm a head now. But the baby's heart beat is healthy and my weight gain is right where it should be. This is great because I caught the flu! I was down for 2 weeks! I lived on my couch! It was awful! But it did give me a chance to concentrate on feeling the baby move! Elliana has also had her 4 year check up! She is perfectly healthy! She is 43 1/2 inches tall and weighs 39.6lbs! I am so proud of her! She did have to get shots and didnt like that of course! But she did great!